Round one down

Round One Down

My first round of chemo was 4 days ago. 4 days that somehow feel like the longest and shortest 4 days I can remember. I have been lucky and the nausea has been manageable I just have little to no appetite but the exhaustion is like nothing I have ever experienced. Which I feel like is something coming from a mom that just survived her first year with twins! Greg keeps jokingly reminding me “it’s almost like they just pumped your body full of poison that is killing all your cells….” I am counting my blessings that I have been able to sleep…. so much sleep, catching up on all the sleep I lost in the past year. I also receive a shot the day after chemo that helps to boost my bone marrow production. I can’t say I remembered what growing pains felt like until the evening after getting this shot. I have a new empathy for my littles who seem to be growing an inch a day, ouch. The biggest challenge for me has been the mental piece of the chemo. Feeling like you’ve been hit by a bus and not much you can do to help it. While I feel overwhelming gratitude for the fact that our babies are being taken care of by their grandparents and dad, it’s hard having to be away from them so I can rest. But for now I am doing my best to focus on the fact that one chemo treatment is done and that means only 7 more to go.